Today I decided to start a blog. After a veterinarian called and told me bad news about my dog. Her cancer had spread into one of her lymph nodes.

It is not the first time I have to deal with this cancer news. Lea is a 10 years old mixed breed and already has been living with cancer mammae for 2 years. During this period she had to undergo a number of operations removing even the smallest limps from her mammal tissue.

So far we thought we had control, the body scans were good showing no spreading. But today the vet mentioned "chemo" for the first time and it really really scared me.

All I want is good life quality for my dog, she is so lovely and happy - all the time! She is big inspiration and source of happiness for me.

Here she is, photographed on the eve of her 10th birthday this year - april 20, 2013. My lovely lovely girl! :)

We decided to take a body scan next monday. Depending on what we find, there can be raised a question on chemo. I am trying not to think of this, this is like a very bad dream. The money is no option, I will pay whatever it takes, like I already did for these two years. It is just the responsibility for causing her pain I do not seem to be able to deal with. So far - we are  waiting what monday will bring.

So this is myself, the pet owner. 40 years old, engaged, and right now pretty anxious about what future will bring.

The shadow pretty much reflects my state of mind right now. It is my fiancee who took this picture in may 2013.

Honestly, I have no clear idea about what to blog. I will give it a go. Have lots of interests and stuff I do. Let this be simply a beginning.